36" x 48" acrylic on canvas.
Have you ever wanted to "go back" to something, someone you were, or some way of being in the past? During this painting process, after changing some things I was guided by spirit to change, there was a distinct stage that I didn't like. At all. My mind said, "hmmm you should've left it how it was." But... that's the insanity of the mind, wanting you to go backwards or stay status quo ... tricking you into believing that the future isn't going to be even better. Tricking you into believing that stuckness, in any form, is good. I invited the Divine into my creative process the minute I first picked up a paintbrush. And with that, comes constant surrender. Never ending FAITH AND TRUST....that Goddess will move through you and change you and transform you... and some times during that process you are not at what you perceive to be your best. You don't like where you're at. You're losing patience. You are putting your energy on the past because it was "better" there. This painting in particular really brings through the medicine of knowing that the Divine knows what she's doing. You will never have any clue how radically beautiful, amazing, abundant and joyful your future will be, until you sit in the process - even during the discomfort - and give thanks for Her transformation of you.